I'm going to be completely honest. I've been really frustrated lately about my work situation. Coy being on break and knowing we have this Christmas and next Christmas break together, before who knows when we get another entire Christmas together. Also, my entire family is off all weekend (some all week), and most of my friends are off. I have never felt like it was so unfair... I've never had to work a Christmas! I used to never have to work a Sunday (I used to work Saturdays, but we were closed Sundays at Lavish). I also rarely worked past 7pm... I feel worn out, stressed out and I want a baby (thought I'd add that in there). I don't want to work 2 jobs anymore! My morning job is so early for how late I work the night before, but it pays well. I love my night job, but I hate working so late. I can't quit either, because I need the money... It's hard when you've always been handed things and then you grow up and find out that it's not easy making a house payment. My mom worked so hard when I was growing up. Sometimes I'd feel like I never got to see her... I respect her so much for that but I still don't want to do what she did... Since I'm being completely honest, I'll tell you that I'm fine with being a full time mom until my children are in school and then, I plan to go back to school (something my mom wasn't able to do). I can't wait for that time in my life. BUT I don't want Coy feeling like I'm a mooch. He has always been a hard worker in his work, in school and everything else in his life. Me, on the otherhand? Not so much. I feel like my decision to be a mom over my will to work is very selfish of me. So many other women are forced to work when their children are little, but I choose not to.
You like how I ran two subjects together? Me too. Thanks for reading my ramble. Also, please check out my recipes on my other blog, Foodies Anonymous.

Hope everyone has a great Christmas week!

Med School is Hard.

Hello Everyone,

Med School is stressing me out and I'm not the one going to class... It's just... well... Coy studies all the time, then he takes his test and studies some more. I feel like there's rarely a time when he isn't studying. On top of that, he told me yesterday that the only time he ate was when I made him, because he was simply too busy. How can you be so busy you forget to eat? I can be knee deep in work but you better believe when my tummy starts growling I hear it.


I started with a personal trainer. Our first day was Thursday and I fainted on him. YEP! I didn't eat beforehand and because I'm hypoglycemic I just blacked out. I'm fine. He's fine... He didn't make me finish the workout on Thursday. So, we started over again yesterday. I made it through my entire work out and I'm sore today. The plan: to lose 16lbs by December. Plan after that: Stay fit/get toned.

Let's be honest here... I'm getting baby fever like crazy. I dream about it nearly every night. But..I'm not sure why the feeling has gotten so unbearable these past few weeks. A little over a year ago, I was all about loving kids but not wanting any of my own and suddenly everything changes. The other day, Coy and I were talking about a guy he goes to Med School with, who he and his wife are having their 2nd child and we were like "Oh my gosh, how will they manage two kids during such a busy time in their lives?"... Yet, I'm a tad jealous of them. I guess, I've gone a tad crazy, because if we are being honest here (which we are). Coy and I can't even think about that right now. I work two jobs, he doesn't even have time to eat, and hello, how would we afford a baby? Oh and here's the biggest one, we are 7.5months away from our wedding.
Thanks for reading!
-Kris-